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Friday, August 10, 2007

When Does It Get Better?

My day started very eventful. I was working hard to get a few things fixed around the apartment. I made several phone calls and got my laptop going (even though I had to reformat the harddrive losing everything on it!), thought I got my DVD player fixed (but it only worked while I was on the phone!) and then I had a nice little letter from the IRS saying that I owed a nice little chunk of money for 2005. I immediately started looking for the tax return and since Katie always did the taxes and was very organized, I knew exactly where to find them. When I went to the file labeled 2005 Tax, there was nothing in it. It was one of those times where I needed Katie to come back and tell me where she put something!! So I dug into the basement and started pulling out boxes of papers. After about an hour of half of searching, I finally came across all the 05 tax info. Relief. Now I just have to figure out what we did wrong and how do I get through this. Ugh! Seems like the devil is really attacking me right now. Just as things look up, someone stomps on my toe. I'm just realizing that I started reading my bible again last week and then I had my problems this weekend. I start to feel better and then the IRS. I guess it's a pretty obvious attack and I ask for prayers to continue to be strong and to be able to accomplish all the things that I need to do. And as my big bonus for the day, I washed Logan - it was WAY overdue. Since he was wet from the rain, I thought it was the perfect opportunity. Of course to him, I might as well have poured hot lava on him while running the vacuum cleaner! But he made it through and now he's sleeping well recupering from the trauma.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

I CAN PROMISE U THIS....IT DOES GET BETTER...EACH OF THESE THINGS U ARE EXPERIENCING ARE A PART OF THIS PROCESS CALLED GRIEF..AND NATURALLY WE ALL GO THRU IT DIFFERENTLY BUT THE SAME TOO...YOU ARE NOT ALONE MY FRIEND...NEARLY NINE YEARS FOR ME AND I STILL HAVE MY MOMENTS HERE AND THERE. I HAVE MOVED ON IN LOVE AND LIFE BUT STILL SOME DAYS JUST SMACK YOU IN THE FACE...THIS WEEK WE WOULD HAVE CELEBRATED OUR 25TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY....IT HURTS SOOOOOOO..
THE IRS?? I WENT THRU THAT AS WELL AND WORKED MY WAY THRU IT SUCCESSFULLY AND KNOW AND PRAY THAT U WILL TOO...TIME DOES HEAL OUR WOUNDS...BUT TAKE THE TIME TO LET IT HEAL U ....ALLOW THE LORD TO BRING U COMFORT AND MAKE THE TIMES WITH KATIE FORM LOVING MEMORIES AND LESSEN THE PAIN PART OF IT.....HAVE A BLESSED DAY AND KEEP IN TOUCH WITH US....SOMETIMES WRITING HELPS TO PULL THE PAIN FROM U AND PUT IT TO PAPER...SHARING WITH US....WITH FRIENDSHIP IN WIDOWHOOD, JEN MILLER, KC, MO

Anonymous said...

Just wanted you to know that you are in the thoughts and prayers of many from Kansas. I pray that God gives you peace and strength to get through the days that seem so daunting. Better days will come! Katie is with you and will always watch over you! Take care and God Bless.
B.L from KC,KS

Anonymous said...

Perhaps they are not the stars, but rather openings in Heaven where the love of our lost ones shines down to let us know they are with us...

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