Monday, September 10, 2007

Britney, Britney, Britney . . .

Anyone that knows me, knows that I saw the Britney performance tonight. Few people were bigger fans of the hers than Katie and me and I can hear Katie now talking about the performance. So I know this has nothing to do with me, but I can't help but think that Britney's manager must hate her. Why else would she make herself look even worse than she already has?! I could go on a serious rant, but why bother. If you saw it, you already know what I'm going to say and if you didn't see it, well, it isn't even worth searching YouTube for it.

As for me, I'm about to do something that I've never done before. I'm going to be taking a trip to a city I've never visited before -- all by myself. I used to not even like to go to the grocery store by myself so this is huge. I'm anxiously excited about it. I think it will be neat to do exactly what I want to do and not have to worry about making decisions for a group. I think it will make me feel self-sufficient, but on the other hand, I will also be blatantly aware of being alone. I never thought that I would ever go on a trip by myself. I would either be with Katie or friends or I'd be working. So I know it will be hard. As outgoing as I used to be, I've become rather withdrawn from the public. I turn it on for work when I have to but right now I really prefer being alone or family or close friends. So we'll see how it goes. Luckily the trip is very short and I have a pretty busy agenda, but there is some down time.

I've been pulling out my photo albums. As I look through them, I'm reminded that I still haven't scanned so many of them that I would hate to lose. So something else I can add to my ever growing list of things that I probably won't accomplish. It's amazing to look at the pictures from our early years together and remember what I thought and then to see how it all turned out. I'm holding onto that idea right now. As much as you think you have a grasp on the present, the future remains unseen.

Please pray for my upcoming trip and that everything will go perfectly.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

omg brit sucked so much. i already left you a voice mail about it. people are saying that it was a look-a-like. i pray that it was. if it was actually brit, she is unable to make a comeback. have a safe trip. luv ya, t

Anonymous said...

JUST A NOTE TO SAY SAFE TRAVELS AND GOD'S SPEED FOR A SAFE TRIP HOME AS WELL...BUT BE SURE TO ENJOY YOURSELF ALONG THE WAY...SMELL THE ROSES, EAT THE TREATS OF THE CITY, SMILING ALONG THE WAY KNOWING KATIE IS RIGHT THERE WITH U....IN SPIRIT...PRAYING FOR U WITH CHRISTIAN FRIENDSHIP IN WIDOWHOOD, JEN MILLER KC, MO

Anonymous said...

It's nice to see that you are writing again....only knowing you from your blogging, it seems as though you have begun to heal. I hope so!! My prayers will always be with you!!

Anonymous said...

James, it is so funny that you posted that, because as I watched the train wreck, I mean, the VMA performance, I also thought of Kate and how disgusted she would be watching how the goddess of pop had let herself go. She would have pointed out the unhidden hair extensions, the tragic wardrobe choice, and the somewhat flaccid dancing! Love you, man!

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