I hope that everyone had a wonderful Easter. I was privileged to be off today and I was able to spend it with Larry and Fran and Katie's aunt, uncle and cousins. It was a perfect day filled with great food and conversation. I am thankful for Easter because it reminds me that Jesus died for my sins and because of him, I'll be able to see Katie and Prudence some day. I watched the last half of Deep Impact this evening. An interesting take on the idea of giant meteors destroying the Earth. I discovered how drastically my ideas have changed because I remember being much more concerned the first time I saw the movie and now I thought, "how wonderful!" I know that everyone doesn't share my enthusiasm for the world ending, but I do think I have something much better else where!
Work has been a little tough lately. Not the actual work but as I talk to guests, I am emotionally battered by them as they celebrate 30th birthdays with their 4 month child in hand, as they celebrate telling parents about a newly discovered pregnancy, as a big sister takes a little sister by the hand and leads her to the restroom. It seems lately that there is always something to remind me. I thought that as time went on that the emotional pitfalls would lessen but it seems that they are becoming more frequent. I pray every night to dream about Katie. I want to talk to her and tell her this or that. I want to hold and smell her hair. I want to hear her laugh and her praise (especially since I dragged the trash to the street tonight!). I want to have someone to listen to me complain and not judge me.
Alright, back to Easter. So Easter wasn't a super special holiday for us. It is tough for us to have special holidays because we made life such a holiday. If I got off work, we considered it a holiday. If we both had the same day off, it was like a holiday. While we were dating, I remember one year she made a surprise trip to Arkansas to see me. Unfortunately, my family can't keep a secret, but I acted surprised all the same. Luckily, I didn't know too far in advance because I could barely contain my excitement. My grandma called me to come over for breakfast on the Friday before Easter and after driving all night with a friend, Katie was waiting in the kitchen. On the video that I found from our camcorder, there are several minutes that she recorded on her trip up from Florida. It's funny listening to her reference me as her boyfriend. It seems so long ago that I was only a boyfriend and not a husband or fiance! That's my fondest memory of Easter with Katie. My family always camped out for Easter when I was growing up. That particular Easter, we weren't able to so I pitched a tent in my Grandma's backyard and we had our own little camping trip complete with an Easter egg hunt and cookout. I love surprises and it was one of my favorites from Katie. I will always remember seeing her face as her smile beamed across it while standing in my grandma's kitchen. Not only was she so excited to see me, but she was so proud of herself for "surprising" me.